I feel like an idiot writing stuff. I am not really good as a writer, even as a language user either (please bear with my low self-esteem). Definitely uncomfortable with the judgement that people might came up with me using English, since I grew in a place where “mentalities” exist. However, I really do adore my home despite that fact.

I can sense that I have to start that “writing thing” which I did 3 years ago. It’s really hard to admit but I thought my life has been “better”. But today, I’ve met   my past “concrete enemies” again. I began acting like I did years ago and I really do not want it.

The “scene” that enforced me to be open with myself has faded. With me, being blue once again wouldn’t probably fit with the world’s current mindset.

It is not so bad to think that the world is what it is.

The future is uncertain, scary.

A medium of happiness might help but

It won’t really help when you know so much.

Oka: Yep! If you pry gently while you watch over us and we open up to you, that interior you’ll find is soft and sweet! Girls are like chestnuts! Just watch and you’ll see, Urabe-san!

Oh goodness, my brain can’t help it!! Must…..think……of………cute……..puppies…..!!!

Spell checker is one of my friends and I love him so much.

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We move, then we rest

Rise, and fall, again

Erase, and write, again

We move, and move again

(Source: epamolarcoiii)

My ONLY Fall Out Boy shirt has ended up fitting with me

WHY!?!?! T__T

I really need to have any Pokemon game..

Pokemon is where my heart is…
also MTG, YGO, and blah, blah, blah and guitars

I’m planning to walk far far away for a pair of Macbeth shoes..
hmm should I, I’m really confused…

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#postingnonsense

It’s Thanksgiving Day
means that I’ll be typing more often for three days

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pasensya kung inaabuso na kita.

wala na talaga akong ibang kayang magawa.

naiinis na din ako sa format ng mga sinusulat ko dito..

masasabi ko nalang na “bakit ko nga pinost to?”

hindi naman siguro dahil malungkot ako 

e di…ano..basta

<p><p>pati din dun sa mga “followers”,

pasensya na kung walang ikapapala yung blog..

naway maging masaya kayo sa inyong paglalakabay

Internet,

salamat sa pagpapasaya sa’kin..thankyouthankyouthankyou

sana lang naman matapos na ‘tong ‘di maintindihang ewan na meron ako..

I am stuck between this cluster of thoughts these past days..ugh I wish I can just tell my brain to stop thinking about unnecessary things (don’t know if they are really unnecessary for me)

Exhausted from doing nothing and I can’t just relax..maybe this is the consequence of growing up..

Maybe it is better if I haven’t have knowledge to what I know now

I feel talking although I just look at their picture.

it is 3:33

Thank you, Sun although I haven’t got the chance to see you outside. It is always good to know you’re there. I’m sorry if I’m always inside the roof. I am just saddened by such events. I am still in search for my answers by myself. I don’t want to lay a word for now. I am too scared to be hurt right now

Don’t you know, Sun. It was way better before. My thoughts haven’t developed but I was living happy chasing you. As I grew, life has been revealing and it was sad to know more. Every second is a responsibility for the tranquility. I am scared that the only reason of the walk was none.

Please do not go yet, Sun. It seemed like the soil only got its tree. The nature has moved along from me. I wish of their coming back. I hoped them of remembering me. I know you are still supplying the other half and it may take some time of your another existence to my eyes.

I may haven’t knew anything, Sun. All I have now is myself and hopefully, the place I’m standing at. Thank you for making me happy Dear Sun. My eyes have still hopes for your light.