Please, let your eyes be consistent because I also try to be.

The distance never meant something

For these impulses in my back to change their course.

So, I hope you still remember those written lights of mine 

For I yearn for the same touch you put to them.

We move, then we rest

Rise, and fall, again

Erase, and write, again

We move, and move again

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Maybe it is better that I didn’t knew earlier, that time

I might turn into my worse self

Our revelations timing was just right

It was just right for this state of mind to subdue me

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It was all my loss, you still have bullets to shot at me

I kept myself vague to you because I was scared 

With all those words by the fingers now

You sure triggered right at my chest

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I hope this is the last time

To tell your heart that you always had mine

But would you even take care of those words?

You won’t even look at me in the eyes

I am stuck between this cluster of thoughts these past days..ugh I wish I can just tell my brain to stop thinking about unnecessary things (don’t know if they are really unnecessary for me)

Exhausted from doing nothing and I can’t just relax..maybe this is the consequence of growing up..

Maybe it is better if I haven’t have knowledge to what I know now

Thank you, Sun although I haven’t got the chance to see you outside. It is always good to know you’re there. I’m sorry if I’m always inside the roof. I am just saddened by such events. I am still in search for my answers by myself. I don’t want to lay a word for now. I am too scared to be hurt right now

Don’t you know, Sun. It was way better before. My thoughts haven’t developed but I was living happy chasing you. As I grew, life has been revealing and it was sad to know more. Every second is a responsibility for the tranquility. I am scared that the only reason of the walk was none.

Please do not go yet, Sun. It seemed like the soil only got its tree. The nature has moved along from me. I wish of their coming back. I hoped them of remembering me. I know you are still supplying the other half and it may take some time of your another existence to my eyes.

I may haven’t knew anything, Sun. All I have now is myself and hopefully, the place I’m standing at. Thank you for making me happy Dear Sun. My eyes have still hopes for your light.

Don’t want to take a letter from your name or a tear from the “letters” but I still hope to see you smile. Though we conceal each eye, please try to be fine.

Sana makapagpost ulit ng mahaba katulad ng date. Medyo alanganin lang sa mga alaala.

» “Kung pag-aaralan, ninais ko lang ang mga bagay na hindi ko makukuha”

As I expected, I’ll be a victim of that again.

It was nothing even if I hoped.

Maybe, I still don’t have enough.

Somewhat, it is okay.

I’ll just keep my hands warm.

So it will hurt more.

Because I’m thinking of putting it closed to our face.

That time, I know.

I am really into writing you.

You’ll see it in you dreams.

Hopefully it will.

We are now closing doors. Change of the state

Minding you always, most of the times

Count the trees, chase the wind, live the fate

Subject, I can’t even reach

Turmoils began, and so you are.

We once bounded by chance. Though, crystals didn’t shined

As your uttered words deafens my ears.

Life for me became more predictable.

It’s impossible, for now, to get a new chance.

You’ll just be fine, like always

It was really good to see you again.

Hopefully, I’ll do fine.

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Was my conscience again

Reckless mind cause meaningless walk Don’t really know where.. Reasons are so thin for you to talk Patiently standing pretending you’re there

Eyes saw the intricacy Opposite thoughts were kept out of mind Hopelessly wishing your eyes could see How I was eager to see you behind the blinds

I was not able to expound my heart Knowing yours will not listen Slowly my presence breaks apart Between your words you’ve dissect it wide open

I walked without being filled with that moment Moments I’ve wish, but I knew will not happen I walked at the place, where I can recall and listened The sorry you have said within that same sunset

I know you didn’t started so I can’t say you’re finished with me

It’s good to see you changed, it was good to see you.

You already knew it before, I was caught by my lines.

We’ll never have the brilliance….

because we’ll never be..

Words, it will never be mine

Just let it be to the skies..I cried

that day, I will always remember.

Let us now forget this. You and me

All I have now is the memory which

I’m trying now to bury…

I’m sorry.

Malamig ang hangin at tulog na ang mundo.

Bakit kaya ganun?…..

Matagal na nga pala tayong hindi naguusap. Hindi katulad noon na halos bawat saglit.

Kumusta ka na kaya? Madalas kitang binibisita sa isip ko..parang hindi na kita makalimutan.

Alam mo ako, mabuti naman ako..yun nga lang..naiisip ko nalang na sana bumalik nalang ako sa nakaraan..

Iba na kasi ngayon..parang wala akong makausap..hindi talaga katulad ng mga panahong yun na walang sukuan..

Alam ko, madami ka ng natagpuang mga bagong masasaluhan mo ng iyong mga ngiti at pinipinta mo na din ang mga alaala mo kasama sila.

Mas marami ka naring isinasaalang-alang ngayon pero alam kong kayang-kaya mo yan dahil minsan na kitang nakitang lumagpas.

Buti nalang mabait pa ang pagkakataon at natuto akong pumindot para nababatid ko ang ilan sa mga nararamdaman mo.

Sana naman, dumating ang sandali na sasagi ako sa isip mo at malaman na naaalala mo pa ako.

Dahil hindi ko mailakad ang alaalang minsa’y pinagsamahan. Nagbabakasakaling makita ulit ang mga ngiting palaging nagpapagaan ng aking loob.

Umaasa na mauulit, mga hindi malimutang oras na hindi ko nagawang mapanatili.

Insights lost..Oh mercy (please forgive me)

Got to say thanks to me..I’m lost in your memory

It’s better not to ask “Can you remember me?”

Chancess are lost..hoping..going to be free

From you

The letters from every words you said

Conveys the lies stucked in my head..

Don’t think it’s you…it’s me

Oh, start the catastrophe

Why it always comes late and requires us to set apart?
I’m very sorry, it was late for you to know
Now I’m trapped in your image and your thoughts
I can say I’m walking the same road again..

How I wish..to be in that time.
Now your voice cost too much
Now your presence is like a star in the noon..
How I wish..to see you again

Why do it’s late for me to know?
That we shared the same heartstrings
How I wish to be in that time..
How I really wish